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February 2009 
Alone...
Posted on Jan 26th, 2009
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Tifster
Tifster
My husband told me that he didn't want to be with me anymore. He is moving out today, and I'm not sure that we can work through this. We had a good, loving relationship once. We married after high school and it would have been three years this June.
Perhaps we were too young. The thought had occurred to me before, but it was never as clear as it seems right now. He wants to be alone and independent, and I have to admit (or need to admit) that i want the same thing at this current moment.
I really love him and care about him, but a growing part of me wonders if it was as good as we believed. The times we spent together were happy and full of love, but how much of it was childish puppy love.
I want to hit rock bottom. I want to drink my cares away. I want to wake up at three in the afternoon and spend the rest of the day piecing together the night before. I know this isn't a good solution, but I don't want to feel anymore. I may take this road or I may not. What I do know it that I want this experience to shape me. If I need to take a risk I do not normally take, then I will.
I have resolved to work through this and carry on the best I can. I have a few friends who are here for me, and I hope to make more very soon. I am thankful that I still have my dignity.
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Wow. I am thankful we have you in this world. Best of fortune in any way you decide to go.
One bit of advice. No tequila.